General Rant

Ok so this whole love thing totally sucks. Ive been fortunate enough to make to make it to 28 years of age without ever falling in love, and then bam out of nowhere I get sucker punched, and I mean sucker punched. Cos its not like I was looking for it, oh no, I wasnt, I was quite happy trucking on by myself. And the thing is that I think that he did have the same feeling for me, he just couldnt make up his bloody mind. First, I get dropped for a better offer and then second time round, he cant make time for me. For fuck sake, make up your fucking mind! So in the end, I had to make it up for him.

Now, I have always been cynical, a plus in my opinion. Ive never understood why girls chase this whole love thing like its the holy grail. And now that Ive felt it, Im even more baffled as to why anyone would want this, I mean seriously? You loose all rational thought, you have no control over your bloody emotions, your time is completely occupied thinking about the object of your affection, a total loss of control, and then what happens? You get your heart broken!!! Now I accept that maybe I am a control freak, and maybe I am emotionally retarded, but whats wrong with that? Do we all have to conform to the Bridget Jones school of thought that the only successful women are the women who have a man?

Its total bollox, why should I have to give up my sense of self just to be viewed as normal, why? My friends have each at one stage or another, told me that once I meet the right man Ill feel differently, yeah, well news flash, Ive meet him. And it didnt work out, twice, and this whole love thing sucks.

So, its time I think for chicks like me to stand up and say, you know what? I actually dont need a man, I dont need a relationship to feel whole, I have a plan for my life and Im quite happy with it. And Im fucking tired having to apologise for this, and be called things like: bitch, lesbian, cynical, tight, frigid, slut, whore just because I either want a one night stand or I dont want to sleep with someone.

So, Bridget Jones can fuck off, as can Ally McBeal and Carrie Bradshaw and every female character in Friends, and any other bloody TV role model that currently give young women the idea that the only way to feel complete is to get a man. Its not true, there is only one way to feel complete:

GET SOME SELF ESTEEM!!!!!